I’ve always loved rainy days, but it seems to me that they have a sort of dual personality about them. They can be wonderful and soothing and dreamy, or they can be gloomy and disheartening. They can be very moody – it’ll rain for a bit, stop for awhile, then start up again – and some days they just have no clue what they want to be so it simply mists, which can either be refreshing or as obnoxious as a gnat that has dubbed you his best friend.
We can get those rainy days where we feel like we have split personalities. We feel like we’re being tugged in two different directions with equal pull. Our minds and our bodies want different things.
Maybe you want to go out with your friends and you get excited envisioning the outfit you’re going to wear and all the fun you’re going to have, but the thought of going out makes your body cringe and you feel slightly ill. Maybe you want to clean your room and do the dishes because you just can’t live in that mess anymore but your body won’t let you move at a pace faster than a snail’s and you can’t manage to be productive for more than ten minutes at a time. You’re incredibly restless but also undeniably exhausted. There’s a battle being waged between the introvert and the extrovert, the motivation and the laziness, the cheerful and the depressed and so you end up curled in a ball on the floor not doing anything because it’s easiest to not make any sort of decision at all.
Here is what I have to say about those rainy days:
Listen to your body.
If the thought of doing something makes you cringe or puts a bad feeling in the pit of your stomach, it’s probably best that you cancel or rain check your plans and spend your night doing something that won’t make you feel like garbage.
Part to part to whole.
You don’t have to get everything done at once. Do things in stages. Even if all you get done is that you hang up your work blazers and wash the coffee mug you’ll want to use the next morning, count those accomplishments and celebrate them. Maybe wash some cutlery and move your earrings from your bed stand to your jewelry box before bed. It’s ok to do things slowly and in pieces until it either gets done or that spark of motivation comes back. Part to part to whole.
Take a shower.
You’ll feel better. I promise.
Get out of the house.
This can be the most challenging thing in the world. But sometimes just putting on something that isn’t the pjs you desperately need to wash and taking a walk around the block is exactly the boost you need. Put on that outfit you were planning to wear that night, just for you, and go grab a cup of coffee from the cafe down the street. There. You’ve gotten dressed, you’ve been around people, and you’ve barely had to have any interaction or do anything strenuous or anxiety inducing. Boom. Introvert and extrovert serviced and you’ve gotten some fresh air and exercise to boot.
I know, as soon as you leave the house your bra suddenly won’t fit, your jeggings will feel too rough against your skin, you’ll feel very uncomfortable in your own body and the outfit that usually makes you feel so good about yourself will suddenly feel like a costume. We all have those days and it’s perfectly acceptable to put on a pair of CLEAN pajamas after you get back from your jaunt.
Feel free to text rant a friend about what you’re going through, because being in a headspace like this can be extremely frustrating and that creates energy that’s being bottled up which equates for some of the restlessness which makes you even more frustrated and it’s just this endless cycle you’re too exasperated to figure out how to stop. And you might be too tired to physically release this energy so feel free to dump it all on a friend who’s willing to be your sounding board.
I’ve also really taken to adult coloring books. It does wonders for my anxiety and I get to exercise the creative part of my brain without putting in too much effort. It’s so simple and is a great option for those restless days where planks or jogging are definitely not an option.
The last thing I’ll say is don’t feel bad for the mood you’re in.
Your mental health is always the most important thing and you should never feel guilty for where you’re at or for needing the time to care for yourself.
Love yourself. Heal yourself. This rainy day will end.